Up and Down and Up and Down

Sometimes I replay getting laid off in my mind. It just pops up and I see it happen, in slow motion. I thought- This is what it feels like when Padma tells you to pack your knives and go. This is what it feels like when Tim Gunn tells you that you have to go upstairs and clean your workspace. Then I thought, you watch too much TV! ;)

Things have been so-so, some days are better than others. It hasn't been long, but when you have anxiety (and even if you don't) the thought of taking care of your kids and worrying about making ends meet is a real scary thing to face. The unknown is a scary place. It's full of what ifs and it can start eating at you. I'm trying to stay positive, but bad cards keep being put down! Things will be ok. I just have to keep telling myself that. Hopefully tomorrow I will feel a bit better than I do today.